Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, when they see the purity and reverence of your lives...let it be incorruptable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God. 1 Peter 3:1

Undone

Posted on Friday, October 16, 2009 by oneP3 | (0) Comments

Undone
By: Katie

It has been a crazy month so far. October is domestic violence awareness month. We did our deal on the 13th where I got to share my story. Last night my new husband and I went to a viewing of the documentary…..”sin by silence”. EVERYONE must see this. Go online and order it today. Powerful stuff. Abused women that killed their husbands and are now serving life sentences. I bought a copy and plan to show it at SOBA. My husband and I cried all the way through it.

You saw real lives and real pain. I could relate with all of these women. The names and lives are different but the abuse and the tactics are the same. I am undone before the Lord. I know this grieves His heart more than mine. It is 4 am as I write this. I cannot sleep due to many reasons, the main is the pain by my right eye. That is where my ex got his final hit to my body. The dr.’s say the daily pain is nerve damage and nothing can be done. It hurts, but after what I have seen done to others, I am lucky. Lucky this is the worst of it and lucky I got out. The physical pain hurts….but the emotional scars are the hard ones. I still doubt myself all the time and question my worth. My ex was great about making me feel like I was less than everyone.

My cry to God is to bring healing. To me and to all the women walking this. I pray they come to know and truly feel God as their father and husband. That HE is the lover of their soul, their strong tower, their ever present help in EVERY time of need. I pray that we all dig deeply into the Lord and seek His face. I pray we seek healing and wholeness that we can only attain in Christ. But I ask that we reach past ourselves and serve others. I now know that God uses EVERYTHING….yes, everything for His glory. It is so powerful to love and care as Christ did. I want my mind on the things His mind were on…...I want the junk that grieved Him to be the stuff the grieves me.

This is my prayer at 4 am. Join me.

Lord my God,

I am hurting tonight for so many out there. Some that I know their names and stories and some that I do not. Lord, you see all. You know all. Please comfort and teach us to love as your first loved us. Let us be people of action that take up the case of the oppressed. Let us use what every times and talents you have given us to serve. Show us how to love the unlovable and teach us kindness. God I asked to be undone before you. All my pain, hurt, and bitterness, I lay at your feet. Cover me in your blood and wash me clean. Let me rest in your forgiveness and grace. Teach my heart the things of your heart. I rest in you alone Lord. Amen.

Two sites to hit up. http://www.sinbysilence.com and http://www.every9seconds.com

Powerful. Go and Be changed!