It’s a bird…..it’s a plane……
Posted on Tuesday, March 25, 2008 by oneP3 | (0) Comments
It’s super woman. Yes, that is me. I can do it all and make it all look good………….. Okay enough of that crap. God is speaking more and more to me about saying “no”. Not doing everything!!! I say yes to everyone and everything, I fill my days up with serving others and feeling drained. No more. I am so convicted of it. I want to do what I do well…..complete and from my heart.
Since the loss of my marriage I have thrown myself into serving….which there is NOTHING wrong with. But I have not given myself the time I need to heal, I fill my life with helping others and trying to solve their problems. It’s catching up with me. I see it as the same destructive pattern my abusive ex husband took advantage of. “Katie can fix it, make it better, take it all on her shoulders”…..
This is both a confession, and prayer. God change me.
Remind me that YOU are the only one that can fix, change, and handle everything. It’s NOT my job. Lord, I beg for healing…to be whole and able to love well. Let the words of my mouth not be wasted, let me only speak Your truth. Let me live in the present…..the right here the right now with my friends, family and children. I do not want to jump ahead to what I could do or look behind at what has happened. Open my eyes to right now. Amen.There is a lot coming up for me in April and May. Family events, birthdays, court dates, school’s end, and new relationships. I love all the women who contact us and some days I am so overwhelmed with how many of “us” there are out there. Please hang tight while I figure out the most organized way to connect us. I have gotten so many e-mails about SOBA and ways others want to help. I am blessed…and overwhelmed!! I wish this was my one focus…..but 2 kids, drama, family, and taking care of a home get mixed in there!! Like I have said, God is teaching me that balance of serving and living.
I want to confess this and also ask for YOUR forgiveness. I want to do this well, not just rush ahead and throw it all together. I want it to be real……I want it to bless any and all hurting women. So….keep checking back and hang in there with us!!!!! God is faithful and I am seeking Him to lead.
Love,
Katie